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Sometimes-used platform of Xenerik. Hobbies include fan studies, gay angels/vampires/pirates, Italian food, transgenderism, and baking cookies. Currently watching IWTV and Tennant-era DW.

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Fic Backup: Dropbox or Neocities (both sporadically updated)

If I ever eventually figure out How To HTML, I will be posting my "Will Graham's Rate My Professor page" fic to AO3. I keep giggling to myself whenever I think about it. But I can't bear to post it without coding it to actually look like the actual RMP site. I don't really have the know-how yet for this. Halp!

Have changed my mind I love this show again

Oh G-d I'm truly going insane over Interview with the Vampire (2022). Just finished watching episode 4. First of all: Claudia is so me. The hundred diaries, the hormones, the attitude... I love her character and I think Bailey Bass did an excellent job.

Second: I NEED MORE. NOW.

Third: Jacob Anderson continues to astound me. I never saw GoT but fr they let him stand in the shadows for ten years on that show??? When he's capable of this??? His acting is so *chefs kiss* I can't stand it. The way his voice catches when Claudia's dying and he wants Lestat to save her...........arghhhhhhh

I watched the whole episode giggling with glee and then rewound it and watched it all over again.

Fourth: Imagine getting banned from social media for saying what Louis du Pointe du Lac did to Daniel Molloy / What did he do to Daniel Molloy / He fucked that old man

Fifth: "Claudia are you blocking me? This is your father speaking" SCREAMING

I'm obsessed with this show and I can't BELIEVE there are only two (two??? two!!!) episodes left before we have to wait 1.5-3 business years for the next season. BULL FUCKING SHIT.

I love it I love it I love it go watch it right now.

I thought it was a good time to do another one of these, since I’ve just recently posted a bunch of drafts to AO3, and I figured someone might be interested in seeing what’s left in my draft folder.

Keep an eye out for these:

1.       These Happy Golden Years (Agent Carter) – This one is a series I am currently writing about Peggy Carter and her life married to Daniel Sousa. I recently rekindled an obsession with them, gorged myself on fic, and decided to write my very first ‘verse! Some upcoming stories:

a.       The Sousas dealing with the aftermath of Jack Thompson’s suicide

b.       Peggy being better suited for spy work than motherhood

c.       Daniel’s relationship with his family, particularly his father

2.       The Uncertainty Principle (Supernatural) – Cowritten with my irl cousin ghoulcoded aka creativewritinggirl. We started this shortly after Destiel became canon on November 5^th, 2020, and we’re planning to release it on the 2^nd anniversary (11/05/2022). It’s currently 26k and is unlikely to surpass 30k. It’s our version of a post-15.19 fixit, where Dean and Cas work out their shit and stop acting like fools (said lovingly).

3.       We’re Getting a Little Sick of the Prodigal Son (Breaking Bad) – this is my trans Jesse Pinkman that is *this* close to being finished; I just need to find some way to wrap it up. I kinda love the title, though. :)

4.       Pull It Out by the Roots (Supernatural) – My first Wincest! *audience cheers* No, no, not that kind of wincest. I wanted to write something dark about John’s abuse of Dean, and the premise lent itself to this.

5.       Grip (Supernatural) – Little ficlet about Dean’s hands and how they go from committing acts of violence to carrying out acts of love <3

 

Fics that are unlikely to see the light of day soon

1.       Untitled Alec Hardy disability fic (Broadchurch) - uh idk I had a #disabilitymoment this summer and drafted a lot of what I was privately calling in my head "cripfics". This is the one I have the most of but I don't really care enough about it to add to it.

2.       Untitled Sophie Roy eldest daughter syndrome fic (Succession) - Once season 4 comes out, who knows, I might change my mind!

3.       Untitled Yelenat fic (Marvel) – not BW movie-compliant. I wanted to write something about Yelena and Nat’s fractured memories after defecting, and something about their fucked up relationship to each other. They’re sisters they’re besties they’re mother and daughter they’re lovers they’re teacher and student they’re enemies they’re in love.

4.       God Bless Your Insides! (Shameless) – trans!Fiona. Also I love this title.

5.       In Essence (Supernatural) – My character study thesis fic of the brothers. Also I hate this title.

6.       Boxertown (Supernatural) — This was a fic about t4t Deancassie that hit a rut and is now stuck there.

7.       Mary, Did You Know (Supernatural) — Another trans!Dean fic, this time with gender troubled Mary. The title is from that Christmas song but I like it :)

8.       Trans Potion No. 9 (Supernatural) — Trans siblings Dean and Sam find a magic potion. Humor and feels ensue. This was going to be awesome (if only you could read my drafts!) but alas, it wasn’t in the cards.

I've written up a brief list of Jewish terms/concepts that are referenced in my fic Transliteration—a reference guide, if you will, for those who may be missing out on some cultural context. For further learning, I do encourage you to do your own research!

The Shema: A prayer that’s like the “centerpiece” of temple services. It has a really pretty melody. Also spelled “sh’ma”; the english translation is roughly, “Hear, O Israel: Adonai is our G-d, Adonai is one.”

Lighting the Shabbos candles (and veil): Lighting candles during Shabbat (a holiday celebrated every Friday night) is a tradition done to mark the day of rest. It’s traditional to cover one’s head—men do it with yarmulkes/kippot, and women can do it with a yarmulke or a mantilla.

Tichel: A hair covering or headscarf, typically worn by married Jewish Orthodox women. To cover one’s hair as a married Jewish woman, with a wig or with a tichel, is considered a mitzvah (good deed). In more recent years, some young, unmarried Jewish women have taken up the practice.

Matriarchs: Four women from the Torah who mothered the children who would go on to become the heads of the 12 tribes of Israel, if I remember correctly. Most famous chicks in the Torah (see below).

Yahrzeit/yahrzeit candle: The yahrzeit is the anniversary of someone’s death. On that day, one lights the yahrzeit candle in memorial.

“Mom was Jewish, so we’re Jewish”: Judaism is traditionally passed down through the mother (matrilineality). Even if you weren’t raised by your mother to be Jewish, many Jewish people would still consider you to be a member of the tribe. Less traditional branches of Judaism acknowledge anyone with at least one Jewish parent to be Jewish.

Conservative vs Reform synagogues: These are different branches of Judaism. There are more than just those two. They differ in how they interpret Jewish law and tradition. Note: Conservative Judaism has no relation to political conservatism. More about Jewish denominations here.

Bimah: Stage in a synagogue that holds the ark (with the torah in it) along with chairs for the rabbi/cantor/etc.

Siddur: A prayer book. Shoutout to Siddur Lev Shalem, all my homies love Siddur Lev Shalem.

Torah: The first 5 books of the Hebrew bible (Hebrew bible = what Christians call the Old Testament). It’s handwritten on a large scroll (called sefer torah) and stored in a chamber in synagogues called the ark.

Tallis/tallit: A prayer shawl. Traditionally worn by men? I think? But many Jewish women do wear them.

Hebrew names: when Jewish babies are given a name in Hebrew along with their English name, to be used in religious occasions (not in everyday life). Sometimes the Hebrew names are related to one’s English name, or start with the same letter; sometimes it’s after a relative’s Hebrew name; sometimes it’s totally random.

I forgot to post about the fics I've written for three straight fics, yikes! Here they are all together.

Fic: Body and Blood (1.5k)
Rating: Teen
Archive Warning: Chose Not To Warn
Fandom: Supernatural
Relationships: Samruby
Characters: Sam Winchester, Ruby 2.0
Additional Tags: Christianity, Religious Imagery & Symbolism, Season/Series 04, Trans Female Character, Trans Female Sam Winchester, Unhealthy Relationships, Sam Winchester's Demonic Powers, technically canon compliant if you squint, Character Study, Additional Warnings In Author's Note

Summary: It’s kind of like this — Ruby is the only altar before which Sam’s ever quaked.

Read it on the AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/29676144

Fic: Appointment in Samarra (754 words)
Rating: Gen
Archive Warning: Major Character Death (non-graphic)
Fandom: Supernatural
Relationships: Dean/Cas
Characters: Billie (Death), Dean Winchester, Castiel
Additional Tags: Deathfic, Bittersweet Ending, Growing Old Together, liberties taken with canon, despite the fact that they die at the end this fic is NOT angsty

Summary: They’ve had a long, long life together, full of laughter and joy and growing old one day at a time. But what is it that people say? All good things must come to an end. Or something like that.

Read it on the AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/29795907


Fic: Colossians 3:9 (100 words)
Rating: Gen/Not Rated
Archive Warning: None Apply
Fandom: Supernatural
Relationships: None
Characters: Mary Winchester, Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester
Additional Tags: Drabble, Trans Male Dean Winchester, Trans Female Sam Winchester, Episode: s12e01 Keep Calm and Carry On

Summary: Do not lie to one another, seeing that you have put off the old self with its practices.

Read it on the AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/30085641

For my podfic of An Unclean Man, I'm trying to translate Cas' voice into a cool audio effect. The author sets Cas' trueform voice apart from the normal text by bolding and centering it, which is a really cool way to do it. So my way of translating that into audio is adding the reverb and echo effects, making it sound like it's in someone's head or in a large room, and then layering the same clip under the audio, but reversed. This makes it sounds all whispery and cool, on top of being echoey. I'm still working out the kinks but it's sooo much fun to edit.

I'm not that huge of an author (yet!) but I know it's important to keep copies of our fic just in case (heaven forbid!) something happens to AO3. So I've backed up my work over at Neocities and Dropbox. Links below, feel free to download!

Neocities

Dropbox